May 29, 2007
To My Love -
I wanted to write you today - from this place - to remind myself that you are real. I come here every week to pray for you and about you. The little chapel here on campus. A place I've been coming for five months, every Tuesday, just to beg for you.
At the start of this year, I made 25 covenants and commitments with God, and one of them was to come here to the chapel every Tuesday on my lunch hour to pray about you. I'm learning much from these quiet times with God. Many questions and tears - much journaling and kneeling at the altar.
Sometimes I wonder if He sees me - as Psalm 42:9 says: "I say to my God, my Rock, 'Why have You forgotten me?'" But then again...as verse 11 says, "Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise Him, my Savior and my God."
I imagine coming here with you one day, and kneeling at this altar together. I want to share with you the place that has been so sacred to me.
I've also been praying Scripture over you. 26 of them - one for each letter of the alphabet. I wrote them out on index cards, and as I walk for exercise, I read them and pray over you.
It's hard to wait without understanding why I'm waiting. I'm doing my best to follow the paths I feel God leading toward, but I always wonder if you are hidden in one.
Please come to me. Please find me. Please be the answer to these hours of prayers I've poured out before the Lord.
I won't give up. I'll keep coming here to meet God and ask for you. I'll keep offering up Scripture as a prayer. And I'll keep looking to find you!
Love,
Bekah
** This was one of the letters I wrote to Ryan before we were married...one of them that I presented to him on the morning of our wedding. He read it to me this week and it overwhelmed me with how God
was working in that season that seemed so silent. Wanted to share it with you today in case you're praying and waiting on an answer of your own. When it comes and you can look back...so sweet. **
5 comments:
Wet iPad alert now!! Sniff PTL again for your answered prayers. It's continues to build my faith.
So sorry to get your iPad all wet. Hope it's not permanently damaged. :) Can't wait to see what God writes in your life story! :)
While it is so hard to wait for God to answer our prayers, once they have been answered, it is amazing to look back and see the journey towards the answer.
I'm glad you can share this letter with a smile in your heart for answered prayers.
Thank you...I stumbled across your blog several months ago. I was searching tonight and came back across your blog. I have so many emotions but wanted to say thank you for reminding me to be patient.
Natasha - ME TOO!! :)
Anonymous - I prayed over these words before I shared them...and I'm so glad that they were what you needed right now. Sending love your way - being patient is so hard - praying for God's rich reward for your time of waiting!
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