I really do try hard to not be Eeyore.
Nobody likes an Eeyore.
And I have to say that this week has held some truly beautiful moments. I had the greatest, most unexpected evening spent hidden away with the Lord on Monday and I still shake my head when I think about it. I can't believe He planned it all out like He did. (Sometime I'll have to tell you about it.)
Had a great time Wednesday night with the Bible study group at church...some great thoughts, they had!
The book signing was, as you saw, SO much fun. So thankful for that.
But there have been....other moments....this week as well.
I was Rudolph's twin at work yesterday - sporting my not-so-subtle red nose. The week just got me, y'all. It did. I'm assuming most of this is something God is up to...doing a work, teaching me, stretching me, molding me. But it HURTS. And quite frankly, I don't always like it.
Yesterday at lunch, I went out on my driving path because I was so confused and I needed to get out there where I can think and hear better. And I did hear...and it was wonderful...but it's still not a cure-all for the pain.
I think ahead to the holidays and I think this is not how they were "supposed to be." And yet I know God will be faithful to bless them because He's good. When I think about decorating the house or wrapping the gifts or doing the baking...I think...do I have it in me this year? Can I do this? I don't know. I really don't. One day at a time...I'll work through it.
And you know how things go when you start worrying about this and that...then everything overwhelms you. The final straw yesterday was when I mis-alphabetized a loan packet at work (by one spot in the folder) and I thought...you know, if I can't even alphabetize correctly, forget it. I'm resigning from the day. Thankfully there were only about five minutes left in the work day at that time. :)
So this is my Eeyore post. Thank you for reading it. I'll be chipper-er tomorrow. I'll be just fine. I know that. I read an email devotion that reminded me of the verse "They that sow in tears will reap in joy." If that's the case, I'm due for some SERIOUS joy! :)
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4 comments:
Sometimes you just have to turn all your worries over to God and know He will provide. I know that's easier said than done, though!
You are right...and I'm happy for Him to take them...but I'm not fond of them as they pass through my hands. Nevertheless, I know it makes me stronger and that's a good thing.
One day when I was driving to work on the side road that approaches the parking lot, I was behind an SUV or minivan (one of those vehicles with the big tinted rear window). It had a right-facing Eeyore in the lower left corner and a left-facing Eeyore in the right corner and "I love Eeyore" in between. My thought was that I do NOT want to get to know that person.
Bekah, you are DEFINITELY NOT an Eeyore. You do not just reap in joy. You ARE a joy! Even through the pain. I am blessed to know you.
Bekah:
Stop thinking that things are not how they are supposed to be. Grasp onto and enjoy the fact that things are NOW as they are supposed to be. Let go of the "I wanted this to happen" and realize that G-d's higher and greater plans that give you a future and a hope are in what is happening now, not in the broken dreams of yesterday. HUGS
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