A Look Back at March

I have to admit...I was nervous about looking back at March. That's when I met Isaac. That's when life was at its very best this year. Dozens of texts every day, most of which made me blush, telling me I was missed and loved and beautiful. Long conversations on email and on the phone...lasting until the wee hours of the morning more often than not. The hope of a promise and the hope of love. I didn't really want to look back on it and remember what I'd lost. But I wanted to see what God might tuck in there for me...


March 3 - I offered a list of random trivia about myself. Question four was: What's one thing that you get teased about a lot? My unique ability to attract the strangest drama. I don't mind it. It gives me something to write about and usually makes others laugh...which makes me so happy. Man if that wasn't just foreshawdowing of the rest of the year. My year of strange drama. Although most were gracious and stopped teasing me...and just started praying.

March 9 - I shared this excerpt from Streams in the Desert that I'd read back in February, just before meeting Isaac, and that particular day, it had spoken to me from the perspective of understanding why God placed me in the family He did...a family that had seemed complete before I showed up. Looking at it now...it speaks to me from an entirely different place. The devo talks about a class of deaf children presented with the question of why God made them deaf and others able to hear. One of the children answered by quoting Matthew 11:26 - "Yes Father, for this was your good pleasure." I don't know why God's good pleasure this year included all it did for me, but I hold to the belief that He is using it somehow for something good.

March 14 - This was a Sunday; a Sunday when Isaac was facing a difficult task, and I was burdened to pray for him. I had much on my mind and needed the time to spend in prayer. In fact, upon arriving at church, I wanted to just continue praying. I wasn’t sure how I was going to juggle listening to the sermon and moving forward with the prayers I’d begun on the way. God was way ahead of me. Our entire service today was built around prayer. We didn’t have a traditional sermon. We had little thoughtlets and Scriptures about prayer…and then we prayed. For minutes on end. Then we had more thoughtlets and Scriptures…and then we prayed again. I don’t remember ever having a service quite like that one since I started attending this church. How good of God to know that’s just what I needed today. How good of Him to provide a whole atmosphere of prayer.

March 21 - I posted a link to the amazing song I Then Shall Live. Part of my thoughts about the song were: Your Kingdom come around and through and in me. Gloria didn’t talk about this line in her interview, but I wonder the same things she said about the first line…regarding this one. How would we live if we did, in fact, live as people who invited God’s Kingdom to come around and through and in us? It’s what He wants of us, anyway. Why not live that way? Think of the blessings we would receive and those we would be privileged to give if we lived with His Kingdom infiltrating us that way! I had many people tell me this year that they could see the Lord working through me despite my pain and at times...despair. Maybe He worked that very line in me without my knowledge!
March 27 - Speaking of Gloria Gaither...I talked about something she said in the World Changers Society Induction Ceremony. She talked about the ever present question of "What is God's will for my life?" And bless her heart she didn't try to cram some huge pressure to dream big down anybody's throats. She simply reminded us to do whatever is right in front of us today and know that this is God's will for this moment. Is it to pass a math test? Pass a math test. Is it to pick up your dirty socks? Pick up your socks. And little by little, He will reveal the next step in the plan. And I hope He does...soon.