My last verse had to do with renewing my mind and transforming my heart...and as you might imagine...that lesson didn't come without some significant "opportunities for learning."
Maybe this one area where I struggle is one you might understand. Maybe you have the same struggle. The longing to belong.
You know what I mean? When you walk into a room where you know you should feel like you fit in...but for some reason, you feel like a glaring misfit.
And so it was, one morning, I wrote in my journal...Struggling this morning with feeling like I don't belong. Staring at my SSMT verse...be transformed by the renewal of your mind. I do not know how. I truly don't know. Hate this lifelong struggle with feeling like a misfit. Not sure what cures it. It's suffocating and crushing.
And with that, I glanced down at my Bible and saw this sticky note I'd hastily scribbled one day after reading one of Beth Moore's blog posts.
So I looked it up. And this verse became mine:
And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.
~ 1 Peter 5:10 ~
He's doing it. Even now, He's working. He's working to make a place for me. To restore my heart to a place of wholeness where it once again understands that it belongs. He'll strengthen me and show me where I belong...in all those places where I feel like a giant misfit.
I love that hope.
2 comments:
bekah, i don't know you personally of course, but i kinda feel like it do! :)
and you girl, totally belong. Your personality and joy and honesty and raw-ness about life (as in keepin' it real) is refreshing and most likely what Ryan adores about you! I have had to learn that not everybody is going to "include" me and that is ok. I have lots of amazing friends and usually the people or situations where i feel like I am not blending or totally excluded or just not meshing... is usually in a place where ya know? I don't want to be anyways!! :) Seriously!
i love that i am HOME with my husband and he understands my crazy worries or at least that they are a big deal to me. I love that. He gets me, even if we are super different. I think God planted you here for a reason and girl, you are SHINING!!! and making all of us feel like we belong. :)
and what is more fun and cool than that? besides pie.
hope Share went well! i am sure you are pooped.
i love that verse! XOXO Polly
Polly, I want to give you the most gigantic hug right now!! Thanks so much for these words that have helped my heart so much today! MUCH LOVE to you (from the pooped girl who also feels like she caught the crud that was circling the station this week.)
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