My New Challenge

Normally God waits until Lent to spring this stuff on me, but He's getting an early start this year.

It's not brand new information to most of you that I'm a fairly intense person. I experience everything to the max. I laugh hard, I cry hard, and I pour myself completely into everything I do. I have learned to love this about myself...it's just how God made me.

But the down side to this uber-passionate person that I am...is that sometimes this intensity causes me great anxiety...undue panic...and flat out sucks the life right out of me. I like to live by a plan. I like to know what's coming and every stop along the way between now and the intended destination. And that...is not living by faith.

Earlier this week, Lynne and I had one of our famous heart-to-heart talks, and in it, she urged me to stop living such a planned life. To stop needing to know what's at each bend. To stop (did she use the word over-analyzing? Yes. Yes she did) over-analyzing every little thing.

Also not brand new information. (I said that for the benefit of those of you who just smacked your monitor and said I'VE BEEN TELLING YOU THAT FOR YEARS, DINGBAT!!!)

After our heart-to-heart, I went into the bathroom to regroup, and while in there, God whispered to me, "You know, Bek, what would it hurt to try it Lynne's way for 30 days? What would happen if, for 30 days, you woke up every morning and said, Okay, God. What are we doing today? How can I rest in You today? Show me how to live the fullest life today."

Uh.

I don't know?

I put my head down and whispered back, "I'm not sure but I guess I have nothing to lose."

Pretty sure there were some holy hallelujahs going on up in Heaven. "FINALLY! She agreed to try it!"

*Ironically* the day this conversation took place was 30 days away from the end of February. (At least God recognizes my enjoyment of clean endings and orchestrated that one accordingly.)

So that's what I'm doing for these 30 days. I'm determining to set aside my need for big pictures and answers and explanations (oh goodness gracious - can I do this??) and instead begin each day by asking God what I need to know for THIS DAY ONLY.

And because I'm living on the edge...I started this project with a video. Now you know why writers write. :)