My New Challenge: Update

I told you a few days ago that God has called me to a journey for the month of February.

It's a journey that changes the way I think about each moment of each day.

And I gotta tell you - it's completely overwhelming in the most amazing of ways.

To write it all out would take far too much space, so let me give you some bullet points of how God has met me thus far in this journey.

* I'd never been a Twitter sort of girl until I started my job at WBCL. I tweet for Mid-Morning, which led me to starting my own Twitter account, just so I could get some practice. Between the people Mid-Morning follows on Twitter and the people I follow on Twitter, I pull out my journal (literally) dozens of times each day to write down a quote or a verse someone has posted that meets me...speaks to me...spurs me on...challenges me.

* One day (did you get that? One day!) after beginning this challenge, one of the guys at work, who had absolutely no clue about what God was doing in me, strolled into my office and said to me, "I'm not sure what's going on, but you seem so different today from the past several days. Your countenance is different." If you watched the itty bitty video clip in my initial blog post, you might remember that countenance was the very word I'd used...in hoping to see a change.

* One week after beginning the challenge, another guy at work, who also had no idea what was going on, came in my office, sat down, and said, "You are different, and I can tell you exactly when it happened." And he did.

* During my weekly phone Bible study with Olivia, she said to me, "Bekah, I can hear it in your voice. Your words are the same but your tone is so changed." (I was speaking of my heart hurt but I no longer spoke in despair and through tears, but rather with great and genuine hope.)

*One afternoon at work, the hurt pressed in deeply, so I set aside my work for a moment, pulled my journal out from under my desk and wrote "My heart hurts...not understanding...I offer this to You as a sacrifice...please hold my heart and help me to understand how to look no further than this moment - What do You want from me right now? How can I rest in You right now? How can I live to the fullest right now? Take me into Your lap...hold me in my hurt." I put away the journal and went back to work. Just moments later, these quotes scrolled through the Twitter feed over to my right: "The power to do whatever God has called you to do is already in you." (Jennifer Rothschild) / "My soul's horizon reports, like Elijah's servant - there's nothing. Every door of opportunity seems closed. Keep me unhurried." (Oswald Chambers) / "Anyone can offer the leftovers. Only those who love God more than anything else will serve up the very best for Him." (Joe Stowell). Hmmmm...sacrified...holding...His calling...you can't tell me He wasn't there.

* I'm not perfect at it. Just yesterday I had SUCH a struggle that I'm embarrassed to even tell you some of the conversations I had with God. It was not easy but I was determined to NOT give up even if I messed EVERYTHING up and had to start over completely.

* And I leave you with this. The morning after God issued the challenge, He brought this song to my mind. Hadn't thought of it in forever. This is some vintage Point of Grace. He's made this something of a theme for me in this season.