My poor heart has been a bit of a mess lately. Sunday morning, before Ryan and I left for church, I leaned against the door frame of the den and said, "I don't want to go. I will go because I know I should, and I know once I get there, I'll be glad I went, but I don't want to go. My heart is in a funk lately and I don't know why or how to fix it."
When we got to church, we discovered it was communion Sunday. I stared at the white clothes cloaking loaves of bread and cups of juice and sighed. I wasn't sure my heart was right...ready to take communion.
I sat and prayed silently during church, asking God to let me know what HE wanted me to do, and by the end of the service, I'd felt a gentle nudge to stand up and take communion beside my husband, and I did.
My prayer journal has been dry in these days - with random scribblings of help.
And it is with all this in mind that I have settled on this verse:
Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me,
for I am gentle and lowly in heart,
and you will find rest for your souls.
~ Matthew 11:29 ~
It goes along with my verse for the year...letting God teach and guide me in my heart. Not being so focused on the advice of others but focusing on the advice of God. And being comforted in knowing that He is not a tyrant. He's gentle and offers me rest and comfort in my moments of fear and confusion.
I'm so thankful He's patient. And loving. And my Teacher.
3 comments:
Bekah sounds like you need a refresher. I went on an Emmaus walk way back in 1991 and it was awesome then...but I just served on a team a couple of weeks ago and it was exactly what I needed to help me get me out of my funk (as you called it). Not sure if you know of anyone who has ever went on a walk that would sponsor you or not. I know this is world wide and it is such a wonderful program. Written by the Upper Room, yea...same one's who do the devotional. I would gladly sponsor you but that would mean I have to meet you in person!! So we could complete the paperwork. I know there are active community in your area. The one down here in Muncie is called East Central Indiana Emmaus. I am not sure what it is up in your area. May God bless you as you are seaching for a deeper and closer walk with Him!!
I find that my verses often jump out at me (are pointed out to me by God) and help with whatever I have been, or will be facing, over the next couple of weeks. I pray this verse is a comfort to you in your dry season.
Hi Amber!! I went on a Brethren Way Walk of Christ, which is pretty similar to an Emmaus walk and you're so right about those! They are so refreshing! I have a suspicion that I've been too busy for my own good lately and that has gotten me away from those times of just sitting in His presence like I need to do.
Natasha - I love the way He points out verses. Always gives me goose bumps!!!
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