What a full, beautiful year it has been. I'm thankful for the year it has been. I'm not sure I have the energy to repeat it...but I wouldn't change a thing about it. And I'm grateful to have captured its memories so I can look at them later and be reminded of the blessings.
This past Saturday, Ryan's extended family had a huge Christmas party, and as we put on our coats to leave, his Aunt Becky hugged me and whispered in my ear, "Who knows where you'll be this time next year!?"
God knows. And He's not telling. At least not right now.
Ryan and I stand on the edge of a future that could go in a thousand different directions. We fully expect that by this day next year, life will look very different from how it looks today. We just don't know the details of that different. We are trusting God to take us right where He wants us to be. We stand with hearts and hands as open as we can unfurl them...waiting to see His plan.
Back in 2009, I stood on this day, glancing over the new decade arriving with 2010, and I had no idea that in the span of one year, I would fall in love...get my heart broken...and publish a book all in the span of one year.
I rang in that new year, from 2009 to 2010 - at a church that once had been my home...with dear friends...playing games and feeling 1000 kinds of insecure. {Case in point - drove around town for an hour just working up the courage to actually WALK IN to the party. You can see it in that picture there on the left. Fake happy.}
And look at the smile on my face just one year later - in the photo on the right. God had taken me through the biggest trials and brought me through with the biggest blessings. I spent 2010 New Year's Eve with friends at their home...enjoying being an aunt and enjoying LIFE.
And on that New Year's Eve in 2010...looking ahead in to 2011, I had NO idea what would transpire in THAT year. That God would allow me the opportunity for a huge career change. That I would say goodbye to Financial Aid and say hello to WBCL. Say goodbye to a 1 minute commute and say hello to a 1 hour commute. That I would blossom even more and let the new inside Bekah match the new outside Bekah. I had no clue.
In 2010, I was with one group of friends...and on 2011 {on the right} I was with my friend Faith. We had a garish shirt Hawaiian party...and went to see a movie...and reflected on our year and wrote out hopes and dreams for the new year. And had a grown up slumber party. And I wondered, just like I did every single year - if 2012 would be the year I'd find Mr. Missing.
And boy did I ever. Yes. Indeed. In that picture in the crazy Hawaiian shirt, I wondered if maybe, just MAYBE, I would find a date in 2012. And God let me find a date...and a fiancé...and a husband...all before the next year rolled around. {Good thing Ryan didn't see this picture, right?}
And that's how the difference from New Year's Eve 2011 going into 2012 and New Year's Eve 2012 going into 2013 ended up looking a little something like this:
So here I am...on the brink of 2014....and all I know is that last year, I sat as a newlywed, beside a New Year's Eve date for the first time ever. Ahead of me was a year full of home renovations, weekend trips, and learning to be a wife.
And this coming year? I don't know. But I know the same God who has been faithful on the brink of each of those unknowns is still walking beside me and I can count on Him!
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