Praying on the Run - Card 5

I did not run tonight...it was an at-home-DVD-workout night. I had good intentions of going to the gym, but the night (as so many of my nights do) took an unexpected turn and I had to go for plan B. Kind of appropriate, perhaps, that the quote on card five is...

Can you set your husband free from your control? Can you learn to be content in these circumstances? Do you believe that My grace is sufficient for your life? Can you take delight in doing My will instead of your own? - Cynthia Heald

And my subsequent prayer is that I'll learn to relinquish control of his leadership to God.

My plan, as I've said before, was to be married no later than 22. In many ways, I'm so grateful that didn't happen. I am not the same person I was almost 10 years ago and while I realize there's the great possibility that my husband and I could have grown and progressed together...there's also the great possibility that we would have grown apart and perhaps things would not have gone as well as I would have dreamed.

It's been so good to be alone these years, too, because I've learned that I'm much stronger than I knew - and I'm capable of more than I realized. The worrisome part of being alone is that I have had been forced to be in control of so many things - and that control has to go at some point. I'll have to learn to trust God to lead my husband's heart. I'll have to trust him to be a good leader.

Even before I prayed on the run, I prayed often that whoever he is out there...would have a soft heart and allow God to teach him to be a good leader. That I wouldn't need to feel to control because I'd be so comfortable with the way he leads.

More than once, I've sat on the edge of a conversation with my jaw literally dropped open, listening to wives boss and control every little action and decision their husbands made. I don't want to cause someone else to do the same someday. And so...I am praying to have a spirit that trusts God to lead him in a much better way than I ever could.